I Drank on Resentment

Visiting the rehab I was in 9 years ago, discussing the break up of family and growing up the child of an alcoholic.

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Thu, 18 Apr 2024 19:00 - 20:30 BST

Online Workshop

Come and join myself and the wonderful Millie Gooch (Founder of Sober Girl Society) for a candid workshop about navigating your twenties sober. Millie will be interviewing me with your questions followed by a Q&A so that you can ask anything that might that come up!

Returning to the Rehab I Was In 9 Years Ago

Check out what happened a few weeks ago when I visited the building that was once the rehab I got sober in. It was an extremely reflective and emotional hour and I walked away feeling exceedingly blessed for the life that I have today.

If someone had shown my current life to the broken girl that walked in to that building shaking life a leaf in 2015, she wouldn’t have believed her eyes. Please know that it’s possible and that life is beautiful without alcohol.

Formerly East Coast Recovery, the building is now a sober living guest house called Harmony House. If you’re interested in knowing more about rehabs and treatment, you can drop me an email at issyhawkins@substack.com

Resentment

I drank on self pity and resentment. Each day involved throwing myself the most almighty pity party. Amongst a myriad of others, I was most resentful at having been the child of an alcoholic, at my parent’s painful divorce/what I viewed as the destruction of my family, at my dreams of being an actor feeling incredibly out of reach and at other people’s treatment of me in my teens. What I didn’t realise was that I was actually most resentful at myself.